Bittersweet Life...

Thursday, November 18, 2004

im here...blogging once again. y? coz i have one more paper to go, which afterwards will i then say sayonara to the tys and tb tt my parents have been spending on for me to suffer. and im here to kinda complain bout today's ridiculously ez paper.

yes, a math p2. ez paper... but i dunno wat came over me tt i can even think straight. yeah... i was daydreaming at certain pt of time when i decidingly wanted to give up coz i cant solve a ques tt i really knew how to do. it's co-ordinate geometry ppl!! ugh! and it's worth 10 marks! and i didnt do it....! yes. i didnt do it. so, i actually could have gotten a c6, but now, it's down 2 grades. i felt so dumb...utterly stupid when erlina told me how to do it. so wat rite? the paper had been handed in, and my fate has been sealed. pathetic? yes. dumb? obviously. lazy? duh-uh. i didnt think. i wasnt thinking... i knew how to do it. feck! it's 10 marks... ppl, 10 marks. yeah, like wat can u all do, u muz be thinking. heck. wateva....

i feel tt i had wasted my time taking the Os. this is y. i had not mugged hard enuf. my fault. i wasnt prepared coz i didnt mugged hard enuf. my fault. i didnt realized it was impt to do better than norm coz i forgot tt there was a thing called moderation. juz me being plain complacent. i regretted not studyin earlier, and heeding teachers', parents' and frens' advices to start revising. now i noe how lazy i am. and it's all over. i cant turn back time. i cant re-sit the papers i took. definitely not. regretting now it's a stupid thing to do.... i feel so bad. im scared how my results will be like. although i noe how it could turn out to be like. gdbye jc... i dunno how im gonna get thru the hols w/o feelin worried or guilty. but i noe it's all useless now.

damn Os.... it was a horrible experience. and it was a bad timing. dampened(sp?) my mood for raye. i feel so hopeless... help. i need someone to help me turn back time.

*to ema: thanks 4 the ruler thingy yesterday. really appreciate it... didnt expect u to do tt coz we so didnt plan it. but, it was a great help. see ya next mon*
~to ppl whom i showed my tantrums to, and to those i was being kinda rude to todae, sorry. i mean it.~

Smashed into pieces at 11/18/2004 01:08:00 PM